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Week seven entry fortherealljidol
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Winter, my bitter rind,

What cold, cold hell I lived through when you descended.

You bloomed like an oil spill in my waters, sucking my sweet Surfbirds into the mire. God, how they struggled to open their wings, but you slathered them with death and told me, this is my love.

With my own blood I painted these words onto a map of the world: “This is the day the LORD hath made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”

Do you command me to rejoice in darkness?

In my hour of need you abandoned me on the interchange, your hollow apathy shaking through my bones.

You baptized me in the absinthe of grief. You decimated my heart. I am drawn out on this brink, you monster.

I cry out. You do not come. You said those who seek will find. You are a liar.

The winter has taught me this: I would have crucified you myself----You who so arrogantly deigned to speak of love while preparing a cocktail of neglect and horror for your children.

You want me to beg like a dog, "Let me eat the crumbs that fall from the table."

I am not your dog. Go ahead and curse me for not bearing fruit, I am already withered. I am frozen and emaciated in the earth.


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Thea, my beloved child,

Your delusions are normal for someone in your condition. Your disease is quite advanced.

I have brought winter upon you to numb you for the extraction I must perform.

I am emptying you, my child, so you can receive me. I am uprooting your attachments to all that is transitory; I am excavating your ego. It’s excruciating my child, I know, just a little longer now, shhhhh.  

I carve a dwelling place within you. My mercy comes with a scalpel. When you have been utterly drained of yourself, I will pour myself into you and make you whole. Our joy will be unending, my child. Just a little longer, now…..hold on……almost empty.....

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createdestiny
Dec. 9th, 2011 01:41 am (UTC)
Thank you. And thank you for calling me "friend." I am glad to have found you this year. :)
nodressrehersal
Dec. 8th, 2011 05:35 pm (UTC)
Sweetjeezus, createdestiny. I mean this with every fiber of my being: When I read your posts, I think, "This. This is the work of a truly talented, 'Capital W' Writer."

This is such a perfectly timed Advent post, too...the darkness before the light.

I've got waves of goosebumps traversing my body; sure signs (for me) that my spirit has been deeply moved.
marstokyo
Dec. 8th, 2011 10:23 pm (UTC)
Wow!
createdestiny
Dec. 9th, 2011 01:47 am (UTC)
Thank you, marstokyo. :)
xo_kizzy_xo
Dec. 8th, 2011 10:57 pm (UTC)
I had to reread this a few times to make sure I got what I think you were saying in this.

I got it.

As someone else said, it's the perfect Advent post piece :)
createdestiny
Dec. 9th, 2011 01:42 am (UTC)
Thank you. Your icon makes me smile. :)
gracegiver
Dec. 9th, 2011 01:24 am (UTC)
wow is right. You're amazing.
createdestiny
Dec. 9th, 2011 01:46 am (UTC)
You actually crossed my mind at one point while I was writing this.....I was hoping you would not be repulsed by it.
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whipchick
Dec. 9th, 2011 11:05 am (UTC)
Such lovely images!
minnesattva
Dec. 9th, 2011 03:03 pm (UTC)
Powerful and intriguing. I love it.
salamanderrrr
Dec. 9th, 2011 06:54 pm (UTC)
love this
faerie_spark
Dec. 9th, 2011 07:24 pm (UTC)
Intriguing! Powerful use of words and metaphors. Poetry lets us say the most with the least amount of words. When it is done well, it's spectacular. You've done it well.
createdestiny
Dec. 12th, 2011 04:33 am (UTC)
Thank you.
noodledays
Dec. 9th, 2011 10:22 pm (UTC)
I love the two voices here. :)
createdestiny
Dec. 12th, 2011 04:29 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)
fourzoas
Dec. 10th, 2011 04:02 am (UTC)
Powerful stuff and a bit chilling.
createdestiny
Dec. 12th, 2011 04:29 am (UTC)
Thanks. :)
ecosopher
Dec. 10th, 2011 04:30 am (UTC)
Really beautiful writing here. Great job.
createdestiny
Dec. 12th, 2011 04:30 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)
pixiebelle
Dec. 10th, 2011 04:37 am (UTC)
Very beautiful language here, wonderfully written. As the others have said... wow :)
createdestiny
Dec. 12th, 2011 04:32 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)
basric
Dec. 11th, 2011 12:05 am (UTC)
Well done.
theafaye
Dec. 11th, 2011 06:22 pm (UTC)
Wow.
createdestiny
Dec. 12th, 2011 02:48 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading and commenting. :)
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