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Rain is traditionally considered a sign of God's blessing. Too much of God's blessing will kill you. Sometimes I think this drought in California is my fault. Like God is punishing the entire state for the wretchedness of one girl in the north valley. I read a book recently about Afghanistan and the author mentioned a seven-year drought in the region and it relieved me to think, I know THAT one wasn't my fault.

What the hell kind of ego-maniacal delusion of grandeur makes one think their patheticness is important enough for God to withhold rain for three years in an entire state? I don't even know if there's a word for that in the DSM Reference Book of Mental Illnesses but the words ape of humility come to mind.

I miss rainy Indiana summers: the sudden mid-day darkness, the alchemical scent of anticipation and ionic stillness in the air.......

Then a deafening CRACK of thunder, scaring the piss out of dogs and babies, followed by the clatter of white rain coming down in sheaths on houses, streets and cars, like the whole town just entered an automatic car wash.

Two days ago, when I walked out of the building I spend 40 hours a week in, I was greeted by large, low-hanging, 3-D, fluffy, white clouds in a deep blue sky. It was like somebody hit the "I'm Feeling Lucky" button on a photo in Picassa. It took my breath away. You don't normally see 3-D clouds like this in Chico, just smog, which I've recently learned is more China's fault than the Bay Area's.

It's very rare that a thunder storm comes to the Chico area, and when it does it freaks people out. They act like it's judgment day or something. But it makes me want to run outside and fling myself into it's arms and say, God, how I've missed you.


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Mar. 1st, 2009 12:07 pm (UTC)
Yes, I wish you wrote more on LJ. I suspect you have a alot to say I need to hear.
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Mar. 1st, 2009 06:36 am (UTC)
Reports are saying there's only a 15% chance that we'll get enough rain this winter/spring to make up for the three years of drought.

On a good day, I'm very pronoid: I believe the universe is conspiring to change me for the better and shower me and everyone who has ever lived with eternal, out-of-this-world blessings.
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Mar. 1st, 2009 07:19 am (UTC)
It's an idea whose time has come: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pronoia_(psychology)
Mar. 1st, 2009 07:26 am (UTC)
if you are ever thinking you are one of these things just let me know and i'll set you straight!!!
Mar. 1st, 2009 07:31 am (UTC)
I'm with you, I love the rain - although a different variety than you - and I figure bad things are happening weather wise because of something I did that I can't quite put my finger on (or maybe I can but just don't want to think about). I'm a big fan of mild weather but lived in Arizona for awhile and got very sick of the all blue always hot days so that now when we get a hot blue day here in Oregon I freak out and think it will be like that forever. This confuses the poor people around me who are just trying to enjoy a summer's day. (And of course right now I fear that winter will never end and the winds will continue to blow hard.)
Mar. 1st, 2009 03:57 pm (UTC)

As a life-long member of the California Club... I want to say that I recall many lightning/thunder storms from childhood. As for adulthood, I think I've encountered one. Odd, and sad, as there is nothing like a good thunder storm.
Mar. 3rd, 2009 01:57 am (UTC)
I've been in Chico since '96. I had no idea this area used to get frequent thunder storms. It gives me hope that maybe it will happen again someday.
Mar. 2nd, 2009 04:09 pm (UTC)
What a great read. Visual, tactile, sensual, earthy - you've got it all going on here!
I'd gladly send some of our rainy days out West if it were within my power to do so.
Mar. 3rd, 2009 12:42 am (UTC)
Yes - this!

Oh how I miss Miami thunderstorms!!!

Beautifully written - thank you for sharing!!!
Mar. 3rd, 2009 11:44 pm (UTC)
Good stuff sister!
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