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Bland Update

I haven't posted in a while. When I'm afraid, depressed or just flat-out uninspired I mostly keep my mouth shut and my typing fingers to myself.

Nevertheless, here's a random update on my life:

I quit coffee. I felt like shit for several weeks and decided I needed a change. These days I'm drinking green tea and I'm feeling better. Better but also weird. I really miss coffee though. The ups were fabulous, but the downs were hell. Plus, I'll probably save myself $50 per month. The boys at Dutch Bros. will miss my tips, I'm sure.

My boyfriend and I are moving into a two bedroom house. His 40 lb. Australian Cattle dog is sure to eat one of my cats. When that happens I can be contacted at the local Mental Health facility and my ex-boyfriend can be found in a van, down by the river.

I'm uncertain about the long-term future. Where I'll live, what to do about school and the job that sucks vital life-energy from my soul. Oh, yeah, and the boyfriend, too. Marriage scares me.

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san_simeon_girl
Nov. 17th, 2004 01:09 pm (UTC)
You're funny!

I understand about avoiding posting when depressed, etc. Congrats on the switch to green tea--those antioxidants will keep you young! And I think it's just plain yummy (I put Splenda in mine).

Marriage scares me too, but that's because I don't trust my boyfriend to keep being nice to me after we're married. You got trust issues?
createdestiny
Nov. 17th, 2004 01:57 pm (UTC)
I'm not really sure what my issue is. I think I might be afraid of living a boring hum-drum life that's all about the bills, lawn care and what to have for dinner. I'm more comfortable outside the mainstream and I guess I view married life as inside the mainstream, aka "boring".

Plus, my boyfriend and I have different religious beliefs and it makes me nervous.
san_simeon_girl
Nov. 18th, 2004 05:21 am (UTC)
Funny, I used to be afraid of that; now I wish for it. I just want to live domestic life and not have to worry about being exciting or interesting all the time.
recycling
Nov. 17th, 2004 09:31 pm (UTC)
Have you and the boyfriend been together long?
createdestiny
Nov. 18th, 2004 08:19 am (UTC)
We have been together for 3 months.
recycling
Nov. 18th, 2004 01:53 pm (UTC)
Okay, in which case you probably won't have to worry about marriage just yet, I wouldn't think. :)
lcurtis
Nov. 18th, 2004 06:13 am (UTC)
Congratulations on making a big decision to share your life with your boyfriend. Yes marriage is scary. However, you do not have to sell your soul to your soul mate. Being the strong woman you are, we are confident that you will maintain your identity, sense of humor and creativity. We would encourage you to get back in school. There is potential in education to get out of a job that blocks your vital life-energy. About the future, as you well know there are no guarantees in this world. So you just have to listen to your heart and based on your knowledge and experiences decide for yourself what is best for you. You know deep down in your soul that you need to continue writing your book of life. One page at a time. You can do it! We love you and leave you with the words of Paul Wellstone "the future belongs to the passionate". Continue your passion for all living things & do not despair because the alternative is to become a Republican and that would break our heart! Mom
createdestiny
Nov. 18th, 2004 08:21 am (UTC)
Thanks for the inspiring words.
ygolonac
Nov. 18th, 2004 11:15 am (UTC)
At work yesterday we had a meeting with out new supervisor. Part of her getting-to-know you thing was to have everybody fill out a little survey that we then shared with the group. One of the questions was something like "What important thing have you learned in life?" and my response was "You mom is usually right." Heh.

I mention this because I agree with your mother here. I think you should go back to school also. I think the job you want is going to require a degree.

I am not sure what part of being married to me would scare you. I know you said you were afraid of a boring hum drum life but... everybody has to pay their bills, unless you want to become a Bonnie & Clyde type of couple. We can drive around the country robbing Starbucks and Jamba Juices.

createdestiny
Nov. 18th, 2004 07:24 pm (UTC)
Um, no.
dietcokehed
Nov. 18th, 2004 10:27 pm (UTC)
or in a van with four dirty punks spending the night in a Wal-Mart parking lot...
nameleswanderer
Nov. 19th, 2004 08:08 pm (UTC)
You should always post so we can help you when your down and share in your joys.

You better have used the Starbucks cards I sent or I will take them and..uh give them back to you.

Train your cats to show the dog who is boss. I had a cat like that. No dog ever came on my property more than once.

First, find job that makes you happy. Your yearning for knowledge will always lead you to education, you just have to listen to it.

For the m word - patience. Trust is earned only over time.

I have to admit traveling and robbing Jamba Juices would temp me though.
karmajones
Nov. 27th, 2004 07:55 pm (UTC)
I Should Write a Marriage Life-Book!
When Bill and I get bored I like to shake things up with a game of "Whistle or Loose It!"
Plus, I always pay my bills late. Yeah! I'm sticking it to the Man!
See, being married can be fun! And if it doesn't work out it's also fun to find places to bury the body.
createdestiny
Nov. 28th, 2004 09:51 am (UTC)
Re: I Should Write a Marriage Life-Book!
freak!
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